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Life is filled with peculiar beginnings that eventually transform into everyday norms. Take, for instance, the first two decades of my life, where without fail, I would always be by my mother's side during the morning of Hari Raya. However, as I entered marriage life, things began to change. Despite my parents and in-laws residing just a 15-minute drive away from each other, the impact was significant during the first time. I found myself crying uncontrollably in the surau near my in-laws' place before the Eid prayers on that inaugural Raya morning without Mak. As time flew by, this absence became a routine. I have slowly adapted to not spending time with mak during Raya mornings, and Mak, too, seemed to have forgotten what it felt like to have me by her side. I am grateful that Mak has others to accompany her to the mosque, such as my sister-in-law and nieces. I am thankful that I still have the opportunity to join the annual Raya visit routine with the Hosnih clan. However, t

Aidilfitri...datang lagi Day 11th of Ramadhan (alhamdulillah)..the raya preparation begins for some. I've decided it'll be more for the kids this round.  After sahur bibik pointed out to me 'dik, semua orang ada benda baru untuk hari raya, adik enggak punya apa?'.. I know she wasn't referring to the Baju raya (coz ours has arrived all the way from Jakarta!) but she must be referring to my brother's, mum's  new sofa, new furniture, house repaint, additional units of air conditioned etc... I wanted to respond to her but I realize that it wasn't necessary. I am just grateful that I still can afford to 'support' my commitments. Cukuplah... I don't have to sweat the small stuff, I don't intend to have open house pun..hihihi (so jangan tanya ye kawan2) Not in 3 years time agaknya. I have prioritize things and even the spoilt staircase fix (wooden panel badly damaged by termites attack) is not in my list. Nanti lah dulu.. Wait. I so

Owh... How I miss you I just miss Having another heart beat inside of me Another soul accompanying me When I'm having sleepless night Talking to you my little sweethearts I just miss Having tiny little one in my arms I pledge to keep them safe from harm The sweet smell of their ears Which always bring me to tears I just miss Having my babies around me As they have now grown up Flawlessly cheer my day My pillar of strength they are In their very own way I am grateful to you the Almighty For blessing me with these wonderful babies Every night and day I pray For You to protect my babies Bless them, Ya Allah.. Bless them all the way Amin.