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Whoa.. this is one of the longest hiatus ever. My last posting was way back in June 2013. And basically that was the time where I was struggling with work, chased by datelines & the all evil monsters in projects *Ok, ok Im exaggerating there* My days were very stressful,  nights were filled with teleconferences,  other nights with nightmares, some nights with code deployment the last till morning then come some server activities and weekends become like any other weekdays I became a zombie I don't know why but at that point of time, it was as if the project (project's name can't be disclosed due to security reason..hehehehe)is the most important thing. Astagfirullah! Like it's the most important to the moon & back, the entire universe and most important di 7 petala langit (the Bahasa Malaysia in intentionally done) By end of the year, once we have reached more than 90% rollout completion, things were a bit quiet..but this is one of my 2013 hig...

I wonder who actually drop by and read my blog. I'm sure there are even readers who doesn't even know about this makcik, and yet still kill time by reading my postings. I miss writing. *sigh* I miss doing other things than work. Have been bogged down with nothing but work, work and work. Not that I hate it but I just wish that I have more time for God swt, family and me. Mekah, debt-less, car, housewife... Nice~ Argh... Dream on. Lets get back to work. Who is going to get me that pandora? And why the heck do I want that pandora so much when I have something better on my wrist? *Sendiri jawab*

Life is wonderful. A blessing indeed. Alhamdulillah. Clock is ticking too fast. I hardly have the time to write. Life at work is simply making me out of this world. I miss the moment where I could sleep at night without having nightmares related to office. (Normal kah aku?) I miss the time where I could perform prayers peacefully... A solat without having to rush in between meeting. I miss the time where I don't have to dread myself every morning to the 'war zone', I miss the time where everyone work together instead of for the sake of talking and updating (kerja lah woi!, stop using statement 'update at my level instead of working level', I have no issue to dirty my hand, so u should too. I miss the time where my kids could greet me when I arrived from office (they'd already asleep when I returned' I have been advised to learn a total shutdown once in a while, at least a day or two in order to re-charge my system. There have been signs that my body has al...

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In time like this When times are hard I turn to my little sweethearts When days are low, the sadness I'm trying to throw When I dont get a smile in return, my heart feels like it is burnt In time like this When there's no one to turn to To Allah swt I place my prayers To help me to go through another obstacles in life In time like this When I hardly see the ray of light Because of the stormy weather outside I know there is still hope In time like this When it is possible to cry river of tears When people are trying to make sense out of the nonsense When fault finding is at it's best I promise I wont break In time like this I promise to change I promise to work hard I beg forgiveness from everyone (please forgive me... for every hardship and sadness that I have caused In time like this I count my blessings To even the small unthinkable things That bring tremendous happiness in life Thank you Allah swt p/s: Gambar tiada kena mengena with posting, hihihi... Hari ini sangat2 em...

Blog collecting webcob (again).... God swt has been answering my prayers, alhamdulillah BUT, I havent been a good servant, a good girl, a good wife, a good mum, a good daughter. I have been put to test, again :-( Please bear with me everyone... Especially to other half, mum, dad, kids...help me thru this Need all the support to keep my sanity. (Wah, sound so serious ni. Don't bother to find out. I will reveal in upcoming post if time permits..jeng! jeng! jeng!)

Dreams...Based on the law..we supposed to write 'them' down. Better still if a picture associate to it. With Allah swt's will. let see if this works, hihihi.. Tanah suci mekah. ( I definitely work hard for this) Hermes Birkin (Note: I will NOT purchase this even if one day I can afford to, ini nafsu!) All time favourite Fairlady 370z (Alahai...should aim higher-Italian machine patutnye ) itu je? just realize I dont have that many "I want this..." list. I am grateful for all the blessings. Terima kasih Allah untuk segalanya.. Note : Puan Moinah Jalil, thank you very much for the fruitful training. It was such an interesting one. I will look for the "Language of Love"..<3 <3

Life is filled with peculiar beginnings that eventually transform into everyday norms. Take, for instance, the first two decades of my life, where without fail, I would always be by my mother's side during the morning of Hari Raya. However, as I entered marriage life, things began to change. Despite my parents and in-laws residing just a 15-minute drive away from each other, the impact was significant during the first time. I found myself crying uncontrollably in the surau near my in-laws' place before the Eid prayers on that inaugural Raya morning without Mak. As time flew by, this absence became a routine. I have slowly adapted to not spending time with mak during Raya mornings, and Mak, too, seemed to have forgotten what it felt like to have me by her side. I am grateful that Mak has others to accompany her to the mosque, such as my sister-in-law and nieces. I am thankful that I still have the opportunity to join the annual Raya visit routine with the Hosnih clan. However, t...

Aidilfitri...datang lagi Day 11th of Ramadhan (alhamdulillah)..the raya preparation begins for some. I've decided it'll be more for the kids this round.  After sahur bibik pointed out to me 'dik, semua orang ada benda baru untuk hari raya, adik enggak punya apa?'.. I know she wasn't referring to the Baju raya (coz ours has arrived all the way from Jakarta!) but she must be referring to my brother's, mum's  new sofa, new furniture, house repaint, additional units of air conditioned etc... I wanted to respond to her but I realize that it wasn't necessary. I am just grateful that I still can afford to 'support' my commitments. Cukuplah... I don't have to sweat the small stuff, I don't intend to have open house pun..hihihi (so jangan tanya ye kawan2) Not in 3 years time agaknya. I have prioritize things and even the spoilt staircase fix (wooden panel badly damaged by termites attack) is not in my list. Nanti lah dulu.. Wait. I so...

Owh... How I miss you I just miss Having another heart beat inside of me Another soul accompanying me When I'm having sleepless night Talking to you my little sweethearts I just miss Having tiny little one in my arms I pledge to keep them safe from harm The sweet smell of their ears Which always bring me to tears I just miss Having my babies around me As they have now grown up Flawlessly cheer my day My pillar of strength they are In their very own way I am grateful to you the Almighty For blessing me with these wonderful babies Every night and day I pray For You to protect my babies Bless them, Ya Allah.. Bless them all the way Amin.

"I had never contemplated staying abroad ... Malaysia is home (to me)," says the affable Johan Mahmood Merican. In so many ways, the 37-year-old is the ideal person to be tasked with retaining and drawing talent back to Malaysia. As the recently-appointed head of Talent Corp Malaysia Bhd, that is exactly his mandate. As I was writing this, I am almost finished reading a book written by Ustaz Hasrizal “ Aku terima Nikahnya” . There is one chapter in his book, where he has written about how challenging life is back home in Malaysia compared to living abroad. He was reminiscing about the quality time he had with his family during their stay in UK and Scotland in comparison to the life in “tanahairku’. This post is about T@lencopr and life Malaysia. “ It’s almost 9.00pm there and you are still in the office?” asked my brother who called me all the way from middle east. Yes, life is not a bed of roses and I had to carry the guilt conscience with me every day to them…”them” are re...

Never have I curse in my life. Yes, one of my big 'pantang' is cursing (mencarut). Honestly, I just couldn't even re-quote it back..an alternate to it would be spelling the word out. An example:- "OMG she actually said ba-alif-ba-ya tadi!". As I have reach my late 30s (mak aii! tua nya aku!) I do not recall cursing people intentionally (unintentionally ada ke? jika ada saya minta maaf). InsyAllah I will carry this value to my grave..(bukan susah sangat pun, right?) You will hear words like 'mangkuk' once in a while from me but when I overheard my eldest telling the younger sister "You idiot, dumb!"..phuh, makcik rasa macam nak makan orang! Mintak maaf, I just cant tolerate people who bad mouthing or cursing. I am far from perfect myself but it's not that hard refraining yourself from spitting those dirty words out. Don't make it a habit. Preventing verbal violence is everyone's duty. We should start with ourself, kan? I will learn to ...

Dedicated to my sisters (you know who you are), this too shall pass, insyaAllah Into each life A little rain must fall sometimes It help us to appreciate the bright sunshine and creates colourful rainbows for all But what if it pours and pours without restraint? Causing countless suffering and endless pain? That is the time to learn The virtue of patience and always believe Allah is always with us My prayer with you girls.

I am finally an official owner of the gadget...funny thing is, not only I enjoy being behind the scene but I also love camwhoring! Gila glamer makcik nih... Pic: braving myself thru the -21c while standing on a rock in the middle of the stream just to capture this.

(This was written in mid Dec 2010 tapi lupa nak post!) It is less than 2 weeks before the new calendar year begins.. And it is time for me to start making an assessment of my 2010 KPIs. Rough Moment 2010 wasn't an easy year .. had my high & low (but thank you Allah swt..syukur I finally made it~and it is time to compensate what was missed during the tough time). There is a saying in Malay "..kami mencari2 sinar matahari, rupanya Tuhan merancang yang lebih baik..di beriNya pelangi.." Yup, not only my prayers were answered but it was more that what I expected. Ok, Ok.. lessons learnt & I have a big responsibility ahead..have to be accountable to the commitment that I have made (Nurul/Tina: I think you know what I mean..) but I believe Allah swt always there with me. Good Times The annual outbound trip,checked! Dubai & Kuwait were the highlights of 2010!! Enjoyed the trip alhamdulillah (though some damage done to wallet, hihi..) Umrah was materialised for mak, b...

It was finally materialize..very brief! Tendered my resignation, served 2 weeks and today is my 4th week at the new place. Honestly, it wasn't easy leaving the 13+ years norm...(but I was telling myself that I should have done it sooner!)..but the signs was very clear & I practically ready to roar! The final 2 weeks was filled with farewell luncheon and dinner. Amongst the one that I enjoyed most is with Fiza, Bernard & Rozita. It was a sure one helluva catching up for old time sake. I know I may struggle in the beginning, but my du'a to Allah "..permudahkan urusanku ya Allah" Hence..in this little corner that I owned..I would like to thank every single one that has assist me in developing my career..to prepare me in adjusting to ANY circumstances and who leave a special place in my heart:- Thank you to my advisor RO, ZAA & Abg Adi .. My team!! Nuruliman, Latina, Saber & Rizaidi ..for being the best team that I have ever had.. for always being my broth...

Technology has influenced my life so much And as guided by the pious, I try to benefit from it as much as possible Hence one of the email that stricken upon me is on the meaning of the verse in between two sujud during solat (Bahasa Malaysia is preserved here since it has a deeper and wonderful meaning) MashaAllah…Quran is beautifully composed…no flaws! Rabbighfirli (Tuhanku, ampuni aku) Warhamni (sayangi aku) Wajburnii (tutuplah aib-aibku) Warfa'nii (angkatlah darjatku) Warzuqnii (berilah aku rezeki) Wahdinii (berilah aku petunjuk) Wa'Aafinii (sihatkan aku) Wa'fuannii (maafkan aku) Subhanallah , it is such a beautiful du’a.. making my every prayer more peaceful upon discovering the meaning. Terimalah amal ibadatku Ya Allah, semoga anak2ku & keluargaku sentiasa termasuk dalam golongan yang mendirikan solat & menunaikan zakat..amin. p/s: The reason I’m posting is about sharing the information Convey! even if it’s just a single verse… ( sampaikanlah, walaupun...

I may be busy..but I do peep thru the daily newspaper to catch the latest update..(especially the disturbing one). This is written during lunch hour in the office simple because I had another brain-freeze-moment in which my thinking refuse to work. Dumping babies Wahai perempuan2…this is one of God’s SWT greatest creation & blessing to us. If you think that you are incapable or can’t afford to take care of them.. please find other proper means (i.e legalise adoption etc) of giving the innocent baby. (I wrapped my babies around me whenever I think of this. Yes, bukan sahaja penyu menangis… saya pun menangis!) N@m@wee Dear Encik Wee, I managed to peep thru your youtube. I also watch your respond to the press in TV where you mentioned “..if I found something wrong in my country, I just cannot keep quiet and Okay about it..” Let me rephrase in Bahasa..Memang ada banyak kelemahan dalam system Negara kita…sesungguhnya Encik Wee, mencarut dan memperlekehkan agama/bangsa lain bukan la sal...

Eid has always been the moment that I look forward to. Simply because of the colours and the family reunion.. (and as usual,I was still stuck at the office the day before raya.. being the only Malay, my body is the only physical evidence of my presence, but my mind & soul was already with the kids) This year was a totaly different routine for both me and my other half. Father in law is currently bed ridden and can no longer walk to perform the Solat Aidilfitri...Semoga cepat sembuh Abah! To MIL, mama : thank you for taking care of abah patiently. I just miss those younger days where raya routine is about visiting the elderly. Where the morning start of with the mandi sunat aidilfitri (which we still practise still today-doubt that the cousins with hairdo perform this...saloon tak bukak pagi2). Then it'll be solat aidilfitri at the famous masjid keramat, then visit to rumah nenek Amanah, then visit kubur atuk at Taman Keramat & Ampang, Then to rumah nenek Ima at lorong kiri ...