huslina

August 19, 2006

1) No remedy

It has been a while that I have not cried for others but myself. I am very much disturbed with the things happening around us. As I was going through my daily routine, flipping through the net and newspaper on the latest update of the Middle East, my heart sank and my tears dropped when I saw this.

Never have I imagined that while I was happily playing on the beach with my family, my muslim sisters and brothers on the other side of the world is actually fighting for their life and their country in the name of Islam.

May Almighty Allah strengthen the resolve and give the Muslims victory over this case . I will continue praying to Allah as part of my contribution to fight against the global rise of anti Islamic for the safety of muslims around the world.

2) A student once more

I decided not to attend the office’s line dancing lesson and to quit gym for a while. I knew I’d feel bad if I am capable to attend the less important thing but not able to manage my time in attending the Islamic related. I remember deciding not to pursue my masters (MBA) because I know those were not the area of knowledge that I am hunger of.

“So, do not be too choosy, as learning as much as possible about Islam (fiqh, syariah, tafsir, whatever that we can afford to attend) is still very important even if we know our life may end soon and that we may not be able to apply the knowledge we gained. This is because attending Islamic lectures is considered as a great ibadah and is also another way of obtaining Allah s.w.t’s blessings and forgiveness. There are so many hadiths talking about the benefits of sitting in such gatherings…” a dying cancer patient once quote (he has returned to God swt early this year)

3) Apostate

The Lina Joy issue was really an eye opener for me; someone who was well educated and equipped with basic Islamic studies is now challenging her belief of many years. My tears dropped heavily as I read her mother statement.
(Ya, Allah lindungilah kami, jauhkanlah keluarga ku dari musibah sebegini…)

That was Miss Lina, someone who is outspoken, highly educated ;incapable to keep her belief in Islam. What about me? My children? My family? My neighbour and my friends?…

4) Back to life

“To Allah do belong the unseen (secrets) of the heavens and the earth, and to Him goeth back every affair (for decision):then worship Him, and put thy trust in Him: and thy Lord is not unmindful of aught that ye do.(Hud: 123)

I am no angel.. only an ordinary wife, mother, daughter and hamba Allah who carry many sins and seeking Allah swt forgiveness and mercy. I hope we can be saved from HIS punishment. InsyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah, God willing and with my mom’s prayer, my life is blessed with so much happiness, health and wealth. But have I performed my duty as a muslim faithfully? There was no single moment that this guilty conscience leaves me.
I owe it all to Allah swt for keep answering my prayers.
(Ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kami, Ya Allah)