Saturday, December 11, 2010

Another closure...

(This was written in mid Dec 2010 tapi lupa nak post!)

It is less than 2 weeks before the new calendar year begins.. And it is time for me to start making an assessment of my 2010 KPIs.

Rough Moment
  • 2010 wasn't an easy year .. had my high & low (but thank you Allah swt..syukur I finally made it~and it is time to compensate what was missed during the tough time).
  • There is a saying in Malay "..kami mencari2 sinar matahari, rupanya Tuhan merancang yang lebih baik..di beriNya pelangi.." Yup, not only my prayers were answered but it was more that what I expected.
  • Ok, Ok.. lessons learnt & I have a big responsibility ahead..have to be accountable to the commitment that I have made (Nurul/Tina: I think you know what I mean..) but I believe Allah swt always there with me.

Good Times
  • The annual outbound trip,checked! Dubai & Kuwait were the highlights of 2010!! Enjoyed the trip alhamdulillah (though some damage done to wallet, hihi..)
  • Umrah was materialised for mak, bapak, abang & family, abang Lan & family.. Yes, I dreamt of Ka'abah and I will be setting my foot if Allah destined me to.
  • The favourite destination, checked twice!! Yes, it's Penang..I made it, 2 kali! Char Kuey Teow, mee udang & pasemboq tetap di hati..
  • Langkawi in 6 star resort was unplanned..(Thank you Dato'!, my kids enjoyed the 5 star service & the suite)
  • Cuti melawat Singapore oso twice lar... Universal Studio which was never part of the plan tapi for kid's sake pi jugak! Findings: Hard Rock Hotel service in Bali far better than the one in this island's HRH.

Happy Times

  • Kid's 3 in 1 birthday party alhamdulillah materialised..
  • Kitchen cabinet fixed/extended (thanks darl!)
  • Mom's AMD procedure done..(terima kasih abang & Kak Tie)
  • Ada sebijik LV in the closet!!!(but it does not come from my pocket!-so kira resolution utk tidak membazir for branded item still stands!
  • There were many, many little to-do list in 2010 got checked..terima kasih Tuhan..


  • After much consideration on opportunities that landed on my door, upon few signs..I finally left the bank for a better offer. It was the 2nd best actually but I think it was a wise decision. Syukur, so far I love my new job & my new sorroundings.. I miss my team in PMS, though.
  • Other half return to a more syariah compliant environment..syukur for the blessings in disguise.

Moving forward

  • Saya ingin jadi orang yang baik..(I seek your guidance ya Allah)
  • Saya berjanji akan menjaga/menunaikan solat di awal waktu
  • Saya berjanji akan menuju ke arah kebaikan..(should cover all aspecs, in life & hereafter, insyaAllah)
  • Saya akan ke tabung haji untuk mendaftar haji for the whole family.
  • Saya berjanji akan sentiasa bersyukur atas nikmat Tuhan...

Lighter moment

  • Less unnecessary update in fb..hihihi.. Dah takmo update yg merapu rapu dah. No need to post whereabout i.e check in @ Pavvy? . But I do appreciate whenever people meng'amin'kan whenever I post a prayer/wish i my status.
  • Saya teringin nak cantik! Haih.. tercabar in new place coz sorrounded with people who really concern about their appreance. (first step: cantikkan hati dulu la..)
  • Saya berjanji to read the pile of books that I have planning to read..(no more books for my birthday please..

Selamat Tahun Baru kalendar omputih peeps! See you next year!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Hijra..A new beginning..alhamdulillah

It was finally materialize..very brief!
Tendered my resignation, served 2 weeks and today is my 4th week at the new place. Honestly, it wasn't easy leaving the 13+ years norm...(but I was telling myself that I should have done it sooner!)..but the signs was very clear & I practically ready to roar!

The final 2 weeks was filled with farewell luncheon and dinner. Amongst the one that I enjoyed most is with Fiza, Bernard & Rozita. It was a sure one helluva catching up for old time sake.

I know I may struggle in the beginning, but my du'a to Allah "..permudahkan urusanku ya Allah" this little corner that I owned..I would like to thank every single one that has assist me in developing my prepare me in adjusting to ANY circumstances and who leave a special place in my heart:-

Thank you to my advisor RO, ZAA & Abg Adi..
My team!! Nuruliman, Latina, Saber & Rizaidi..for being the best team that I have ever had.. for always being my brother & sister
Also my breakfast buddies..Ruzaini, Khairol, Adib & Erwan..
my leng chai & lenglui..AG, Kuan, Moh, Ivy, Li Peng, Sook Khim
My kakak..Hanizah & Nor Amizah..who have always helped me in any way
and my adik2 Asni, mimi & shida..
my new team at 8th & 9th floor (you know who you are!) for the sweet & short memories..
and every single one that has helped me in my day to day in the organization..!
Terima kasih semua (macam speech menang award pulak!)
and I do hope you'd forgive me should there is any hardship that I have cause during my service..(maaf byk2!)
You guys have help me thru high & low.
May your kindness be rewarded by the almighty..

To mak & bapak..for your prayers
To my brothers..for your support
To my children..for your love
and escpecially for my other half..for always being there believing in me

Thank you for another blessings ya Allah
and especially for answering my prayers..
Accept my hijra Ya Allah
For the betterment in life of people that I love & hereafter..insyaAllah.

Salam Maal HIjrah semua.
May Allah swt bless our years ahead. InsyaAllah.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Pray! before prayer is said upon you....

Technology has influenced my life so much
And as guided by the pious, I try to benefit from it as much as possible
Hence one of the email that stricken upon me is on the meaning of the verse in between two sujud during solat
(Bahasa Malaysia is preserved here since it has a deeper and wonderful meaning)
MashaAllah…Quran is beautifully composed…no flaws!

Rabbighfirli (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)
Warhamni (sayangi aku)
Wajburnii (tutuplah aib-aibku)
Warfa'nii (angkatlah darjatku)
Warzuqnii (berilah aku rezeki)
Wahdinii (berilah aku petunjuk)
Wa'Aafinii (sihatkan aku)
Wa'fuannii (maafkan aku)

Subhanallah, it is such a beautiful du’a.. making my every prayer more peaceful upon discovering the meaning.
Terimalah amal ibadatku Ya Allah, semoga anak2ku & keluargaku sentiasa termasuk dalam golongan yang mendirikan solat & menunaikan zakat..amin.

p/s: The reason I’m posting is about sharing the information
Convey! even if it’s just a single verse… (sampaikanlah, walaupun satu ayat…)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Bulletin Board

I may be busy..but I do peep thru the daily newspaper to catch the latest update..(especially the disturbing one). This is written during lunch hour in the office simple because I had another brain-freeze-moment in which my thinking refuse to work.

Dumping babies
Wahai perempuan2…this is one of God’s SWT greatest creation & blessing to us. If you think that you are incapable or can’t afford to take care of them.. please find other proper means (i.e legalise adoption etc) of giving the innocent baby. (I wrapped my babies around me whenever I think of this. Yes, bukan sahaja penyu menangis… saya pun menangis!)

Dear Encik Wee, I managed to peep thru your youtube. I also watch your respond to the press in TV where you mentioned “..if I found something wrong in my country, I just cannot keep quiet and Okay about it..” Let me rephrase in Bahasa..Memang ada banyak kelemahan dalam system Negara kita…sesungguhnya Encik Wee, mencarut dan memperlekehkan agama/bangsa lain bukan la salah satu darinya. You have just worsen the situation instead of fixing them (or is that your objective in the first place?). Personally, as someone who attended a multi racial school, your act is a disgrace & truly unacceptable. Sangat memalukan! If you want to fight for something, do fight like a warrior & instead of posting your video with cheap languages itu, please find a proper avenue and please, make sure you do some homework or fact finding first. To note that I also do not represent the minority of Malay who attack you back with another abusive language BUT I condemned your supporters who are making fun of other’s religion! Saya mendoakan semoga hati anda dibuka untuk perkara yang baik2 Encik Wee.

Kiasuland veteran hero
Yes Tuan Lee, we acknowledged your popularity for being invited to the prestige international interview/talkshow. This however, does not permit you to have less respect for your neighbor.. As a citizen, I do accept some of your critics positively for my country improvement.. but honestly, it is not proper for someone who lives in bungalow to comments the interior of his neighbor’s terrace house just by peeping thru from the garden. I swear that I live in a better condition than majority of the minority community in that country). The RTS (Rapid Transit System) to the kiasuland plan is on, so I heard. Semoga ini mengeratkan silaturahim kedua-dua belah pihak J

Wah! Index now is at 1477.84! That’s high! hence I need to adjust my ‘own’ index accordingly…no handbags, no new car, no! no! no!
Time to save…I need to do some homework on Economic Transformation Programme (ETP) & National Key Economic Area (NKEA) before I share my story on economic views.

Cosmetic tycoon & 3 others murder
Have been following the case and quite shocking upon the discovery of this brutal murder. To add salt to the wound, there are people who takes advantage and trying to politically link to the already sensationalized case in the country. Some dares to use the ‘racism’ issue… Race does not dictate one’s character..except for the Israelis yg sediakala jahat itu!! Coverage of this case has attract worldwide press (not forgetting the little emperor country down south itu).

Jakarta, Bendera & Maid
The Indonesian anti Malaysia group, Bendera has again launch the ‘ganyang’ Malaysia due to the claims that this Negaraku country immigration mistreated their fishermen who was caught fishing in the Malaysian waters. The leaders of both country have been trying to find ways to improve the situation. The recent discovery of a maid abuse in Penang 2 days ago however will potentially ‘stir the stagnant water’ again.

My unfortunate muslim brothers & sister
In Pakistan
the flood that has destroyed land, cattle and leaving people homeless…My prayer (and small ciku monetary contribution)..I share the grief with you brothers & sisters
In Palestine
Hitler once quote
“I could have annihilated all the Jews, but I left some of them to let you know why I was annihilating them”..
Macam dah tak sanggup dengar cerita penderitaan mereka…but nonetheless, I will never stop praying for them.

That’s all the news for today’s folk… let’s perform our a muslim, as a law abiding citizen, as a Malaysian, as a mother, father, daughter, son and as a human who basically able to assess and react rationally in our day to day activity.
May Allah swt bless us eternally.

OK. Sambung kerja.

Monday, September 20, 2010

My raya story

Eid has always been the moment that I look forward to. Simply because of the colours and the family reunion.. (and as usual,I was still stuck at the office the day before raya.. being the only Malay, my body is the only physical evidence of my presence, but my mind & soul was already with the kids)

This year was a totaly different routine for both me and my other half. Father in law is currently bed ridden and can no longer walk to perform the Solat Aidilfitri...Semoga cepat sembuh Abah! To MIL, mama : thank you for taking care of abah patiently.

I just miss those younger days where raya routine is about visiting the elderly.
Where the morning start of with the mandi sunat aidilfitri(which we still practise still today-doubt that the cousins with hairdo perform this...saloon tak bukak pagi2).
Then it'll be solat aidilfitri at the famous masjid keramat,
then visit to rumah nenek Amanah, then visit kubur atuk at Taman Keramat & Ampang,
Then to rumah nenek Ima at lorong kiri 13, I can never forget the orange colour house with spacious land itu..
Then the journey of rombongan rumah ke rumah starts...(penat seh!)

Although the celebration is now difference, we still practise the tradition and shall passed to our next generation, insyaAllah. I would also like to instill to my kids that not everyone are fortunate to celebrate raya like us.. It's about sharing...(I guess they still too little to understand-the abang doesnt want to share duit raya, the sister gave away her duit raya (generous budak ni, mana duit2 dia pegi pun tak tau) and the little brother only wants the angpow packet and throw away the notes *haih*

All in was a short ramadhan, short hari raya..tak puas rasanye. Abang Lan & family pun da balik (enjoy your Europe trip, I still envy the Jungfraujoch & St Moritz trip itu..)

Syukur for the blessings...and just cant wait for the official announcement before I can share the good news with others (Note : ini tiada kena mengena dengan pregnant).

To Muz & Nonoi: congrats for the rumah raya...
To Faiz & Titi: for the kete raya 5 series itu...
To Azura my friend: for the Audi4
To my nephew Iqmal : for the D90 tu!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Farewell Ya Ramadhan...A Sahlan Eid Mubarak

Ramadhan feels too short this time
I wasn't able to fully take advantage this round..
Too occupied with my duniawi official work (syukur la kamu wahai ya suri rumahtangga..)
Alhamdulillah I only missed one tazkirah, though

(but the set back was it was my favourite ustaz Badirul Amin)

Ramadhan has ended
But what lessons did I learn this time?
"Ya Allah, sekiranya ini Ramadhan ku yang terakhir, jadikan lah ia Ramadhan ku yang terbaik.."

A short reminder to us..

To take benefit of 5 before the 'other' 5

1. the youth before the old age
2. the health before the sickness
3. the wealth before the poverty
4. the free time before the pre-occupation
5. the life before the death

I'm grateful for all your blessings Ya Allah,
..amongst them is for being able to see the lovely faces everyday

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Will you?

It was an odd moment when I just had to spit this from my mouth...(Ni semua gara2 baca artikel "masih suami isterikah kita di akhirat?")

Will you re-marry if I'm gone?
Instead of answering, he ask me back 'will u re-marry should I'm no longer in this world?'

I refuse to answer back then
But I know my reply would definetly be'Yes, I will...'
I will re-marry....

Should there be a man that can be a father as good as you to our 3 kids..
Who will love them unconditionally like you do..
Should there be a guy that understand my intuition without me saying..
Should there be someone who can accept my weaknesses like you..
Should there be someone who can attend to my demanding needs like you..
Should there be someone who willing to live with my stubborness like you..
Should there be a man who can read my mind whether it's gonna be laksa, cendol or beef ginger noodle like you..
Should there be a man who can accept a woman who doesn't dress up or put on any make up..
Should there be a man who understand that I don't like to choose between Blackberry & iPhone like you..(nak dua2 gak...haih!)
should there be someone who can lead our jemaah solat like you do..
should there be a man that simply as sweeter than you
should there be someone who will never have ANY fight throughout the 10 years marriage like we do(and the list goes on.....)

Do you think there's anyone out there EVEN close of having your qualities?
I love you for loving me.. And I want you to be my soul mate dunia akhirat En Nazri..
May Allah bless our family eternally.. Kita merancang, Allah swt menentukan, kan?
We have been through high and low
and we still have each other... Thank you Allah!

Ya Ramadhan...Ya Kareem

Here comes the holy month..bulan yang ditunggu-tunggu..
The thing that most motivates me at work during this special month is the daily tazkirah & ceramah.. Alhamdulillah, havent missed a single day (when I'm at work lar)...and today's topic inspire me to write this..

I realize, as we grew older, priority in life has also change over time..
I'm glad that I still have people sorrounds me to keep me grounded, alhamdulillah.

I used to think that my half dozen of Ferragamo is my prize possesion
Now I dont even give a second glance at the boxes & they just stood there in the store
I wore them on my feet anyway & there's nothing special about that

I used to think that having had to buy the Gucci sling bag in Paris La Fayette boutique is one of the coolest thing that ever happen to me (lawaknye!? riyaknye?)
Now to me it is just a bag, nothing greater than that

I used to chase for a bigger house, with my garden and all
But I realize that I am already in my dream castle
and I should be grateful for that ..Ya Tuhan!

Nowdays I began to cherish little thing, some of them...
For being able to perform solat..which means I am at the best of health
For being able to spent time my family..which means I'm not alone
For paying my zakat regularly..which means I still generates income
and the list goes on...

and like yesterday when Haziq called to inform that he got 100% for Science, I was already grinning ear to ear in the office... and today when he showed me he got straight A's for all subject, I feel like I'm floating...syukur!

Both hubby & myself still waiting for the announcement... (penantian itu satu penyiksaan, huhuhu..)
Berkat Ramadhan...I believe Allah has greater plan ahead & He knows what the best for His servant. Praise the Almighty for this wonderful life....


Blog collecting web cob…again

Have been very busy and tied up with the current project, definitely leaving this space ‘status quo’ for a while..
also missing reading bloggers blog-Zura’s, Iffil’s, Rizal’s etc…
Spending on 12 hours at work on average (and the happiest moment would be lunch hour and time to go back!)
My favourite quote ..”Ya Tuhan….”

This too..shall pass.
Thank you to my family for being by my side through high & low..
Penat seyy,,….

Will make up to hubby & kids during family trip nanti, InsyaAllah...

Friday, July 30, 2010

Happy birthday Haziq!

Happy Birthday My eldest boy
May your birthday baby,
Be happy and grand

I could reminisce your arrival
The long awaits finally over
Having you in my arms
Feeling more than finding a priceless treasure

Praise the Almighty
for you (your sister & your little brother too)
For all the blessings
For all the love brought into our life

Happy birthday Muhammad Haziq
May Allah swt bless you & instill you with akidah
And victory in life & hereafter
We love you

~ayah & ibu~

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Sometimes (ulangan..)

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.

HE breaks our heart to makes us whole.

HE sends us pain so we can be stronger.

HE sends us failure to makes us humbler.

HE sends us illness so we can take care of ourselves.

Sometimes, ALLAH takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything


Give me strength...Come to my assistance, oh Ya Allah!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


"I wonder how does it taste when those smoke going thru my lungs, my air way passage and I simply l0ve the way those ladies holding the rokok,...ada style lar"...
then other half spit it out "isk.. merepek you ni!"

This curiousity growing stronger.. could it be associated with my latest coffee addiction? Yup, I started drinking coffee recently (few months actually). It all started when vendors & consultant keep bringing starbucks in meetings & workshops (I consume but I swear I have never buy any of that pro israelis brand!)..For someone who usually drinks cammomile tea at dome & sunrise orange at coffee bean, this is a BIG change!

I find coffee somehow stimulates the brain to be more alert, more enegertic. I no longer feel sleepy during back to back meeting marathon & I always feel 'full' (less passion for food & kurang makan?) I'm still exploring whther this is just a mindset or its actually the caffeine that doing it's thing.

I managed to find an alternative to this though.. finally found a'healthier' coffee that suits my taste (with extra feminine supplement lagi!)

..back to the topic...

"I'd propose that if you are still thinking of smoking (and style), you need to wear something that goes with it..something low cut on top & something tight & short at the bottom..then stilettoes to make your posture curvy.. barulah ada style!!!.. rambut bagi karat pastu .."
before he could add further I cut in by saying "isk... merepek lar you ni!"

Note: Tiada kena mengena dengan sesiapa.. (even if you smoke, you are still my friend..just wish that you know how serious it can cause your health)

riddle diddle do

Haziq : Ibu, dalam banyak2 pokok, pokok ape yang orang takut?
Ibu : pokok berani? (*dalam hati* here comes the silly willy riddle again)
Haziq : pokok tumbang lar....

Haziq : Ibu, kalau monyet naik motor, orang naik aper?
Ibu : Basikal?
Haziq : Isk, orang naik hairan la.. monyet mana naik motor

Ibu : Ok, ok..ibu punya turn lak..dalam ramai2 ibu, ibu sapa paling cun?
Haziq :Ibu Haziq lar !!!!! Dah la cun pastu Ibu masak lamb grill & spaghetti paling best in the whole wide world..
Ibu : *malu*

Haziq : turn, what do you call ears in Arabic?
Ibu : eerrrrr.....

Thursday, May 06, 2010

You can mess with me, BUT don't mess with my momma!!

*Hope the above title caught reader's attention.. *
This is significantly in conjunction with the Mother's day in Sunday, May 7
(Yes Haziq, the date changed every year because it will be celebrated on 2nd Sunday of May..hence no specific date)

To my children,
I am so very sorry for haven't been involve with you lovely kids 24x7
But rest assured that my love is beyond that
..and not a single breath that I took without a thought of you in my mind
I love you with every single fibre of my being
And I thank Allah swt the Almighty for blessing me with such a wonderful kids like you

To Haziq, thank you for your doa for both ibu & ayah after solat (nak nangis ibu dengar Haziq doa untuk kami :) nanti ajar adik2, Ok?
and thank you for leading the nite prayers for the family
To Nazurah & Hazim; I love you bam bam!
For my mother,
Terima kasih mak for raising me & my 3 other cool brothers
(I think you deserve more than what I can afford to write)
I may not shower you with money & gold
I know you dont even know the existense of this blog
but I thank you for your every prayers that made me who I am today
and I am sorry for every tear drops that I cause you (maafkan Nana mak..)

For mak my mother in law,
Thank you mama for accepting me in your life, your family
Thank you for giving birth to the father of my children
and thank you for every prayers for us
and frgive me to if I ever cause grieveness in your life (minta maaf ma..)

To me,
I may not be the best-est mother of all. I may not perform my duty as a mother as I should be..but I know I am the greatest mother that Haziq, Nazurah & Hazim can have. No one can replace this position..

Selamat Hari Ibu semua...
Remember, a mom have the strength to raise 10 orang anak..tapi seorang anak belum mampu menjaga seorang ibu.. think about it!

Encik Nazri: Thank you for the mothers day gift *ngeeee...* By the way, I'm halfway through reading the book in the pics.. yet to finish the remaining half dozen of books that you bought for me..(tak ada masa la bang).. Next in line would be the Robin Sharma's (err,... aper kata beli buku citer lak, bule?) Yup, I'm still aiming at least a book in a month :)

Monday, April 12, 2010

My girl is 3!

To the sweetest girl
In all of the land
May your birthday baby
Be happy & grand

Nazurah is the name we give
The name symbolizes a leader
You presence wash away all the grieve
And I know my love for you is forever

I am so thankful
To have a daughter like you
There’s no other in this world
That can fill your shoe

You are my caring & giving
You are a real joy to behold
Watching you as years pass
As your talents unfold

You leave memories & contentment
Throughout these years
As this quite often
Bring my happy tears

Praise Allah the almighty
I am grateful for my family
May our life be blessed eternally
And for all to live happily

Happy Birthday to my darling daughter Nazurah
Ibu & ayah love you so very much (same goes to the boys too!)
Terima kasih Tuhan swt for this wonderful life, alhamdulillah.

Monday, March 29, 2010

BB.. What is that?

There are many abbreviation out there which have multiple meaning. For example, a 'HP' will indicates a vendor to an IT person while it means a loan product to the business team.

Another simple example one goes like this;

If you talk BB to Iffil, he may talk wonders of the mobile gadget

If you mention BB to Alin, she would happily tell you the difference between Elianto, Silky Girl or Face Shop
BB=Blemish Balm

If you saw a BB on my sms to other half, that means I'm being nice :) , I'm always nice what?

UKM undergrads who lives in BB means they are not staying in the campus vicinity
BB=Bandar Baru Bangi

The illegal DVD seller who gives a two thumbs up as a BB will make the 'hamsap' customer happy
BB=Barang Baik

Some of the naughty team in the office will send a big BB to a job request, which simple mean...
Boley Blah! (Don't ever practise this.. Bad manners nih)

Tuesday, March 09, 2010 of the many joy in my life

Happy first Birthday to the one of my sweetest boy
The two sweetest in all of the land
May your birthday baby
be happy and grand

For baby has brought pleasure
Into all our lives
I love you forever
May Allah the Almighty bless our life

Have no fear my boy
Proud parents will always pray for you
InsyaAllah, this life, you will make it through

I love you more than I have words
To express or say
May Allah be with you
Every night and day

Selamat Hari jadi Muhammad Hazim..
Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh..(Sorry for the last minute small celebration sayang,
If God swt permit, we'll have a proper one like abang & kakak first birthday when ayah is done with his classes & exam, insyAllah)
~ibu Haziq, Nazurah & Hazim~

Here and there

Last 2 weeks has been ultimately hectic.. Sangat-sangat penat! This is especially with flu and cold accompanying me.
Truly a month to remember. Despite having to spend quality time with kids during the middle east & Singapore trip, I miss them terribly at work.

Honestly, I am not one of the parents who would go for 2nd, or 3rd honeymoon. (As for hubby's official outbound trip, no matter how important it was, I would rather not follow him if the kids can’t come along). Like hubby said, a trip/vacation suppose to make us happy, but it would be pointless without kids because they are our happiness.

Many has suggest to leave the kids behind for holy land trip.. but Zalia in Riyadh has strongly encouraged, she even share some tips ..(InsyaAllah anak2ku, jika diizinkan Allah swt). Holy land is still on top of the list (still ‘menabung’ nih!)

Mission almost accomplished for trip checklist this year.. yup! Covered the 3 places in a month. Despite returning from Lion City the night before his exam, Haziq score straight A’s in his school test(Alhamdulillah) and he think he deserve the bumi kenyalang trip in April (in order for him to complete the ‘I-have-been-to-the-13 Malaysia state ‘..Haih.. have to review budget ni.

DSLR? Have to scrap off from this year’s list.. have contributed RM8K to Maxis (mangkuk) for the oversea phone bill.. The recent visit with one plastic friend (the only company credit card) truly challenging. Yup! One can brag about having debit card but reality bites, it doesn’t work most of the time (Hubby, jangan marah..hihi). Credit card is still a necessity when travelling. Even though you may not use it, a hotel deposit may became a hassle without it.

Errr.. lari dari topic lar. Iam stuck in the office, still reminiscing the precious momento with hubby & kiddies during the trip… Guess that is why cant focus much writing this time.
Oh dear God swt.. thank you for this blessing.

February gone

February gone too soon
Time flies too fast this time
But it was sailing fine
Because of many holidays
And the short working days

February gone too soon
was it because I was away?
In UAE, Kuwaiti land, KL and Singapore
The places that I have been wishing for
So 70% of checklist I have score!

February gone too soon
May be because March already peeping through?
Can’t even wait for another day
Especially because my birthday is coming
And wondering what will I be getting?
Life has been so blessed..syukur Ya Allah.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Off mating season?

Imej ihsan google

I've blogged about this couple of years back, just have to say this..., the 'season' is on again..!!
A recent tele-conversation with a friend goes like this...

'..Ok, bye for now..send my regards to your missus'..
' & missus are no longer toghether Nana!, we've got divorce last week!'

My thinking was, wah! he was saying it happily.. sukanye dia! (2 months after that, an accidental bump in a photographer website explained the whole thing..) Off late many marriages ended tragically.. it hurts, because those are the people I know.. :(.. and it scares the hell out of me.

Let's go through the list of common reason that came to these 2 ears. (Ini adalah pendapat peribadi semata-mata, tiada dipengaruhi mana-mana pihak):-

1) Irreconcilable differences
Hard to accept, why? sebab bercinta macam nak rak bertahun-tahun, marriage last when the little kid only started teething?

2) 'Third Party'
There is a saying 'cinta itu buta' ... Yup, love overcomes any obstacle along the journey. But one has never think that they are that mangkuk obstacle for other people. Why must you be selfish & break a happy family lar?

3) Career?
OOohhh please, ... why must you neglect your family to pursue this? For God swt's sake my friend, please do think of our children. (ker, alasan jer diaorang nih?)

4) Money$$$$$
Errr... my money is my money? your money is my money? (Abg Joned, I love you!)

5) Long distance relationship
It works for some couple, which actually strenghten their love, but for some it's an opportunity, an opening to meet 'new' faces which resulting the loved one back home badly hurts :(

6) Late bloomers
Well some of them tak sempat 'har-ya' during the younger days kot, or probably because of financial stabilility at this age, enable one to afford to those 'happening' places. Lupa dunia, lupa loved ones? You'd be surprised how some still have the energy boogeeying all night long and work the next day.

7) Fate
Yup, overcome this one statement that he was 'fate' to remarry (but part yg divorce yang lama bukan lak 'fate'? Haih, susah nak cakap.)

8) Salah kita
Yup...contohnye; for wifey like me yang not be able to cook, jaga makan minum hari-hari, tak manja2 to our other half (Hi sayang!)~I was told if we do not take care of our loved ones kang orang lain lak yang amik kesempatan (alasan...)

Those are among the common one yang dengar ESPECIALLY number (2).. (Yup Wani: Kekasihku gelap ok but kekasih gelapku tu mmg cari nahas)... but how true it is I wont know, because we are the outsider je..

Partly happy to see the single mother and father moved on happily..but also sedih to see some values disappear entah ke mana for some; but my concern is more towards the children :(
Few of them even 'moved on' even merrier compared to when they were married. Alhamdulillah..

Kita merancang, Tuhan SWT menentukan...,takdir. I pray for this marriage to last forever, and for my hubby to be my soul mate dunia akhirat.. (I thayang you..mmuah!) We cant beat the fate, but at least we can try to hold on, to be patience, to be strong to defend our marriage.

For my friends, praying for the best for all of you.. (like most of them said 'blessing in disguise'),,..and for those who have been given a second chance..may this one last forever, InsyaAllah.

Make love people, not war!

p/s: a tip from Fadhil@Godale to male friends 'bila rasa macam nak menggatal, ingat muka anak, it will automatically put you off and bring you back to reality'... yer ker?

Friday, February 19, 2010

I’m BAD, I’m BAD!

(Those who have closely follow my blog would understand what this entry is all about..)

Oooohh I’m so bad,
Posting my heart out
Not using my mind
Till cause some hardship
To the unintended one
(Refering to rumah ‘Kota Damansara’ which addressed to KAKAK itu but cousin pulak terasa-nangis katanye. BTW KAKAK itu pun has already send one of her kids to some elite private school, yeay!)

Ooooh I’m so bad
Calling people’s name in my blog
For clearing the gossiping about my loved ones
But end up I am the one seeking an apology
Even though the juicy story is about me
(Refer to ‘Lita’ story.. shouldn’t I stand by my love ones?)

Ooooh I’m so bad
For standing by my principle out loud
Not knowing what the impact would be
For being silence all my life
Until I post something in this space
(Refer to the silence mode..kekadang lupa “cheraken” ayat nenek!)

Ooooh I’m so bad
For letting them talking about me
For causing them leaving provoking comments in my blog
For not having any feelings towards their action
And for letting time heal the emotion
(Refer to the keep hearing news ?)

Ooooh I’m so bad
For keep praying the good things for them?
And wishing them that they get what they want?
For them to be happy with life ahead?
For more wealthy years?
With less tears?

Yup, sentiasa include them in my prayers after solat, my doa semoga mereka bahagia, sejahtera dunia akhirat, for their business to success and semua yang baik2 …Frankly speaking, I do not know how to satisfy this part of flesh and blood..(I hope people are not praying for my world to tumble down to provide their happiness). Minta maak sekali lagi. The reason I’m posting this because I realize that I made a big mistake for reacting to whatever statement that reach my ears. InsyaAllah, I will take the silence mode again.. hopefully my thick skin will also applicable to my ears after this. Haih,.. ntah la….

I have always been told “ to reach for the stars – never let anyone destroy your dreams, your self-respect, or your family. You are worth as much as your ideals and principles..” and this is something that I’d like to impart to my children.

May Allah swt bless us all.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

May be? May be not?

FB reconnects me with many friends around the globe..and I always wonder how does it feel to be away from home for so long like them. In the recent trip to Dubai, we met another Malaysian friends working there..and like others, they share their experience working in foreign land.

I would say that my brother's departure to oil land is a different situation.. I guess he made the decision partly because he knows that our parents are in the good hand of the remaining siblings back home; abang, nami & myself (puji sendiri)
Can I be like them? I don’t think so.. (penghijrahan kawan2 ke Kulim pun sudah cukup meng'teruja'kan kan saya) And I remember having sleepless nite when other half were reconsidering the Bahrain's offer. Why not? Let me see, my list goes like this:-

1) Called me old fashioned but I need to be surrounded by parents, brothers, sisters, in laws, nephew nieces.. I already spend many years fulfilling the 'educational' requirement..and it's time to stay put (think I made the right decision not accepting the Aussie offer lepas SPM dulu )

2) Majority of the people working abroad says "we dont have our family here, our friends are our family" if everyone practice this, what happens to flesh and blood punya family? Saya mahu jadi the orang yang tinggal itu yang dapat both family & friends..

3) They quote " keep us connected" .. but to me, Skype still won't be able to walk your sick mother to the clinic..

4) For some, it is partly an advantage having to skip many rounds of wedding, kenduris, birthdays etc. That is why they have ample time to have holiday in other country, weekends fill with gathering, bbqs with other expat etc. Balik kampung (Malaysia) is just like a must annual trip.

5) Another plus point from my fren in foreign land "Our children will be independent, and meet people from different corners of the world." Yup, this will partly influenced one upbringing,..but I prefer (again) to be surrounded with love..(ala. dah besar nanti bule jumpa/keje ngan omputih gak cam saya.., hi hi..). Quote from newspaper cutting which feature my brother:-
“..Besides that, they actually expose their children to challenges no words can describe nor books can teach, but eventually this will make these Malaysians more tolerant and better strategists, to avoid failure and the unlikely consequence of survival in a foreign land..”

*wait a minute.. who says by staying put not challenging enough? Malaysian education system is still more exam/paper based which make it harder compares to practical/project based in other country...*

6) One said “..observe FOREX for this currency against ringgit, the rate is going up.. !!you should consider working here Nana!".. looking at the glass half empty it would actually sound like this "..wishing the ringgit is going down". (Tak baik tau, orang2 Malaysia pun nak gi jalan2 oversea jugak, kalau ringgit jatuh it means higher cost for malaysian).

7) Kat oversea tak ada asam laksa yg sedap macam kat Malaysia!!!!

8) If everyone’s going off shore, KL will end up like Heathrow airport (full of Indians) and Dubai (Pilipino). Bibik2 dan mat2 bangla will surely dominate the city!. ( It’s OK, I know there will still people like me and mat salleh foreign like my boss to be here..)

9) Ada orang cakap “..ala Nana tak mau pegi mana2 coz dia nak parents dia look after her children..” eerrr.. just cant find a better way to explain this, nanti kena hentam lagi ~(Thank you mak & bapak for taking care of my kids)

There I said it. My mouth are just too heavy to say the above whenever my expat friends ask me or other half to consider working abroad..This is my stand for now. I may have DIFFERENT opinions say 2, 3 years (or may be faster) down the road. Mana lah tau there’s a big opening (i.e Bagi Porshe sebijik, mansion sebelah David Beckham ker? Atau makcik laksa buka cawangan kat New York ker?) Who knows I may just leave everything behind and fly!!!! But I hope if that happens, I will be rich enough to bring my family (parents, parents in-law..) along.
Rasanya kalau mampu, let those foreign land remain as 'holiday destination' ajer la..
Pics: Desert Safari dinner in Dubai..memang best! Tapi to think of seafood dinner kat Muara Sg Duyung Melaka tadi, (to be exact; ikan bakar, sotong celup tepung, butter prawn, sweet sour..) phuh!..

Sunday, February 07, 2010 feels good to be here again..

My 10 days middle east escapade has finally ends. I am home.
The place I belong.

I had fun & I think the pictures in my fb explained everything... The last minute travel plan was smooth alhamdulillah (but I think my parents would be serik to travel with my 3 kiddies again)...and just soo happy to see Uncle Lan & family.

Arab land was sure an expensive country. Dubai was truly a cosmopolitan city while Kuwait is far from what I imagined. The land was filled with hummer, lamborghini & Ferraris!

Will write more bout my trip.. still jetlagging (kerana orang jakun ini sudah lama tidak 'terbang'). Seronoknya da balik..especially when laksa is just a few minutes away :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Mental development

2010 begins with hectic schedule.. Too hectic that even a visit to the loo is getting lesser. Hadoi, if it is gonna be like this all they way, I'm going to age faster than I should be.

Blogging put on hold but I still drop a line or two in fb.
Thanks to mobile technology (bb & 3gs to be exact), photos uploading made easy.

It's still a long way ahead. Still a law abiding citizen..
Praying for more good things to come, insyaAllah.
..and to continue to start each day by appreciating, being grateful to the Almighty swt for all the blessing.
Alhamdulillah... Thank you Yoi for reminding us to be thankful with what we have.

Friday, January 08, 2010

School Holiday Part 2

Haziq: Lets play riddle ibu! Dalam banyak2 jam, jam apa yang paling panjang?
Mom: dunno?
Haziq: jam- batan (jambatan)

Haziq: Jam yang bule sikat?
Mom: jam-bul *dalam hati: aik! Bukan aku ke yg bagi soalan ni dulu?*

Haziq: Jam yang paling busuk?
Mom: Jam-ban

Haziq: Jam yang bule makan?
Mom: Jam-bu

Haziq: Ok! Ok.. English version lak, what kind of die is shining?
Mom : (ape punye soklan ni?)..huh? I give up..
Haziq : Die-mond (diamond)

Haziq: Edible sand?
Mom: sandwich !

Haziq:*sulking* tak mau main lar..
Dad: ibu ni.. !Kan aritu da bgtau how to answer..

Thereafter, I either gave up or pretend not knowing the answer to the following riddle by Haziq seperti yang dijanji...
Q: Strongest black?
A: Black belt

Q: Talking black?
A: Blackberry

Q: Singing black?
A: Black eye pea (kang aku jawab black dog bone kang nangis plak)

Q: Delicious black?
A: Black forest

Q: Hardest black?
A: Black metal

Q: Hottest black?
A: Black pepper


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